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One year.

I started this year (as in May 2018-May 2019) in Homerton hospital, surrounded by drips full of fluids all determined to get me back to health. I was single, emotionally low but unsure as to why and feeling like I was living through Groundhog Day.

I ended...

It's been almost a year since I made the decision to cut out drink and drugs from my life. It's been hard at times of course, but never as hard as now. We go to the pub and everyone wants to escape what's going on and get D.R.U.N.K. It's been pretty challenging to go t...

Nothing satisfy's me atm, I'm completely bored and it doesn't help that someone who eased some of that boredom with daily laughter has suddenly been taken from my life, with no warning, no goodbye, just on the phone one morning as usual and the next day, to try and com...

Day 313 of being sober…

… and Day 6 of something entirely different.

Today I woke up in bed, next to one of my best friends Sof. I had told myself I was 100% going to go to a class this morning but to be totally honest; with the options being either staring into space at...

So, this is how it feels when one of your best friends die. You always kind of wonder what these insane things would feel like. It felt nothing like I ever thought it could. Yesterday is a day I would gladly forget but I doubt that I ever will. It was the day that mean...

Lots of my posts are positive - it's easy to write when things are going well...but what happens when the shit hits the fan and stresses really pile up. Well, that's what happened over the last few weeks.

A bunch of things happened which hit all my trigger buttons, as I...

I haven't written for ages...firstly, because I'm not feeling great and secondly because I've had imposter syndrome. Right now, it feels uncomfortable to write so I'm forcing myself to. I'm pretty sure this post is going to be hella boring to anyone reading it, but the...

I'm bored… and I’m an imposter!

‘I'm BORED....’ – this was a part of a blog post I had written just before Christmas.

I read a phrase the other day that said - '…neither lost nor found', and although it was enough to make me feel a bit sick in my mouth, it did really res...

Let's talk about sex...sober sex.

I don't know if this is weird but I've had more sex since being sober than when I was a 'boozy, 2-day bender party girl' SHOCK. Maybe it's because I've been clearer about what I want and what I don't want? 

The difference is, that t...

This is relevant on so many levels for me over the past few months. Since becoming sober I've slowly put myself first in many ways, not selfish ways but in healthy and justified ways. 

I've learnt about my needs and sorry to use the buzzword on everyones lips but selfca...