A New Year...a New Conversation...
- Anon.
- Jan 3, 2019
- 2 min read
It's 2019, the 3rd of January.
I'm now 228 days sober and feeling good. I no longer send drunk texts, I no longer devalue my worth when it comes to boys after too many drinks, I no longer have days with zero motivation, beating myself up for wasting a day when I could be working, or working out.
Don't get me wrong... I still fuck up, make bad decisions, go on bad dates and order McDonalds.
I've maintained my lifestyle, events, dates, holidays - all sober and all revealing. I wouldn't say I identify as an addict, however, there were some behaviours I needed to break for my wellbeing and all forms of addiction are valid. I definitely had my vice's and I think living in London and working in the world I work in it's hard not to. Someone recently tried to persuade me on drinking and drugs, saying it opens your eyes up to a whole new world, but I've been drinking and doing drugs since the age of 13... I'm now 33 and my eyes are open to an ENTIRELY new world now, one that's clearer, easier and although doesn't come without challenges is one I prefer.
This journal isn't a dramatic account, I haven't lost my house, or all my money so sorry to disappoint if that's what you were after. It's an account which so many people can probably relate to, addiction isn't defined by the urgency to down a bottle of Vodka first thing but repeatedly doing something which has negative effects. I'm no better or worse than my friends who still drink, it's not a journal which sits me up on some high stool looking down on things, this is just my experience in changing things up and removing drink and drugs from my life as a 33 year old, single, busy, working female in London.
These are my words, I'm in no way saying I deserve to be in an 'addict' space but this is MY space and you are welcome here, to read, or submit to me your own experiences, as the blog says - EVERYONE IS ANONYMOUS HERE - if you are considering taking some time off your vices for whatever reason, I hope it may help in some way.
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